Mini Cheesecakes

Okay, so I won't be saying when I'm posting anymore because I simply don't know when I actually am going to.

Okay, so I have just learned how to make mini cheesecakes and I figured I would share with everyone how to make the delicious things.
Ingrediants:
-2 eggs
-graham crackers
-1 teaspoon vanilla
-3/4 cup sugar
-2 (8 ounce) packages of cream cheese (Yes, you're basically eating vanilla flavored cream cheese with a graham cracker crust, but it's so delicious and a must try.)
-butter
(Then basically any toppings or cinnamon/ chocolate or whatever for flavoring, you'll just throw that in the mix and I'll let you know when if you do different flavors.)

Preparation:
-Preheat your oven to 350 degrees.  Make sure you have your cupcake pan or a large pan (not for the stove) if you're making a larger cheesecake.  The pans (whichever one you're using) must be greased.  I used Pam, but whatever works for you I suppose, oh and what makes it easier for the minis: place those paper wrappings you would use for actual cupcakes instead of greasing your pan, then it will be easier for you to get the cheesecake out.  I, unfortunately, did not have that option and I had to cut them out with a butter knife.
-Now, lets start with the crust.  In a small mixing bowl, crush your graham crackers until you can no longer break the chunks into further smaller pieces, you don't want your crust having strange chunks.  I used probably around 6 graham crackers for this.  Take about 1 tablespoon of butter and melt it, then pour it in with your graham crackers.  This will help the crust to stick together; you may need more butter, but don't make it stick too much or it will become either hard or just won't be a nice crumbly-like crust.  Then you're going to take the crust mix and put around 1 tablespoon in each cupcake mold.  This may not be enough depending how small your molds are so add as much as you like, it's your crust, everyone likes it thicker/ thinner than others, whatever makes you happy.
-Now for the cheesecake mixture, put the eggs, sugar, vanilla, and cream cheese (and any flavorings you wanted to add, NOT the toppings, toppings and flavorings are different, but I don't see how it would hurt if you accidently put the toppings in the mix, it'll be tasty still) in a larger mixing bowl.  With a spoon, chop and mush your cream cheese so it is no longer in blocks and continue until it is good enough to bring in your mixer.  Mix it all up until it becomes a creamy-like, offwhite-ish batter (Yes, it will look very disgusting at first, but don't be discouraged).  Then fill each cupcake mold almost to the top, but not all the way, but not too little.  Your cheesecakes will rise when being cooked so you don't want them to expand over to the others.
-Cook in the oven for 15 minutes.  Yes, that's all it takes.  Then take them out (they will deflate, I was scared I ruined them my first time making them but its what they do, so don't worry) and let them cool on the stove.  Then, when they're cool enough you can chill them in the fridge, NOT the freezer (just making sure you got that).  Okay so now that you've given them time to solidify more you can take them out (cutting them out with a butter knife if you didn't do the simple cupcake paper thing way) and place them on a platter.  Top them off with fruit, sauce, whatever you like on cheesecake and serve.  WOOT!  Go eat your little snack now.  Enjoy!!! :3

Adorer

To stand without
Trembling knees
Is a marvel.
Where once I felt
Desperation
At its best,
Choked my senses,
Bittered my tongue,
Fouled my heart.
His touch too hard,
His heart so
Blackened by lies.
He could not feel,
Could not love,
Could not cry
With a true face.

My release came,
But serrated
I must have
Appeared.
Tear stained- yes,
Broken- yes,
But not gone.
Longing for strength
I cried out
On silent nights.
Lonliness
Took its hold.
How could I,
The wounded,
Cling to passion
Longer still?

Hope came to me,
Though it was long.
Another boy,
Another smile,
But true it was.
He was known
To my heart.
A childhood
Companion.
Forever
In my life.
Oh, how he
Warmed such days
Where the cold
Lingered close by.
Oh, the smiles
I felt appear
Upon my face.
My heart beyond
My breast and chest
No longer burned
With such an
Unfulfilled,
Growing lust.
It beat stronger,
Loved deeper.
Such a silly
Word and yet
A complex
Thing it is.
But to love now,
With every
Sweet breath I breathe,
I feel complete.
Yes- to love,
I prided
To scream it then
And scream it still.

Internally,
I have grown.
Desperation
Must take notice;
That twisted look
Of hatred
Can be seen
Within his eyes.
Oh, yes- hatred.
Because I
Stood against
His brutal ways,
Because I
Have healed since.
He can no
Longer touch me.
He can no
Longer hurt me.
He has others
Of whome he lies
And conceals from.
He breaks his own,
Suffers alone.
A constant
Wheel turning,
But bound itself
To the earth;
Never learning
How to truly
Feel.

(Okay, I'm not the best writer in the world, but here's a recent poem of this whole thing between I and another person.  I don't stick to any solid rules when I write; I'm completely freestyle.  Anyways, I'm sorry for not have posting on the day I should have, but I'm still sticking to Friday as the next blogging day.  Oh and in case you don't know french, the title above is To Love.)

From the Heart

Now as an artist, I can say what I feel art is really about.  It doesn't matter how "perfect" or realistic it is, but about what feeling, thought, or perspective you're trying to get across.  You really have to put an emotion to it, something that will draw a viewer to it.

Now I've seen a lot of fantastic pieces, especially in my portfolio class I'm taking, and many people in that class know how to bring out that emotion, but one of my friends in that class, I feel, doesn't really put her whole heart into it.  I don't feel that much when I look at some of her work, as if she was only going for how real she could make it.  Now I love her work, don't get me wrong, she's a fantastic artist and everyone seems to love her, but I wish she really put more feeling into the pieces.  I know she has a lot locked up in her, that's for sure, but she doesn't really express it too much in her work.  I saw a few pieces that she had done last year or maybe two years ago and I felt the emotion, but now she's slipping from it and it bothers me to see it.

On the days she's not working hard on her projects in class she's dancing around saying she doesn't want to work that day, but that's three out of the five days.  I understand she's very busy once she gets home, but so am I now, and although I don't want to work on my projects sometimes I keep going.  I've caught myself slacking and put myself to work harder.  I always try putting in my emotions, thoughts, ideas, etc. into my pieces, but people don't seem to care for it as much as my friend's work who seems to get most of the attention in class.

Now, I don't want to make it sound like, "Why not me?  Why can't people look at my work?"  There's a lot of people who go unnoticed for their work; they have great pieces, but it seems like it's a popularity contest in the class and sometimes it seems like the most realistic wins.  I know that's what a majority of what people are like nowadays (doing things halfheartedly, thinking of only getting rich or famous), but shouldn't people really consider what it is they like about a piece or song?  Don't people want more than bad lyrics or a painting of just another famous person?

Way back when, people wrote what they felt; they played music or painted a picture because it's not only what they love doing, but because they knew it was the only way to express their deepest of emotions and show others a different point of view on the world.  Many of them didn't become famous until after they died!  So why can Justin Bieber rap/ sing (whatever that dude does) on the radio and become famous so easily when I've heard better, more thoughtful lyrics from others on the web who go about unnoticed?  I feel this world is all backwords sometimes.

Sorry to make this sound like a lecture or something, but it just bothers me how things like that happen.  I'm hoping people will agree with me and things can come from the heart more often than not.  That's probably what the wide world is missing.

Well, I hope this has sparked some inspiration or something, although it's not very well written (got lost in my thoughts rather than concentrating on making it sound real good).  I shall write again on Monday (by the way, Mondays and Fridays are my blogging days if you're wondering).

SLAM!

Man oh man, I'm seventeen and I had the time in all the world!  But now I'm getting hit with work, which I don't mean to complain, but go from lazy with nothing to do to having to juggle work, college interviews, drivers ed, and homework (we're excluding the social life because there really won't be any)!  Yeah, that's a lot for me and I still have to write my book and produce more art for my future, but I'm finding the above too much already.  So how do I relieve my stress?

Get organized!  I bought a planner and it's magic right now; if anything comes up I go straight to it and it's all settled.  I work on my homework in school if I can, then I would go home, finish the rest, work, come home to produce art and finish any left over things on my to do list.  If I'm lucky I can go to bed around 11pm or 12am.  That sucks, but it's now my life.

Now, that's my little tip on organization, but really this is just a start up on stuff I'll be posting and I honestly have never really done this before so bear with me.
I'm a writer and an artist and I do all mediums (even a little sewing now that I'm learning), so I'll mainly blog about that.  I like mixing it up a bit so I can be random or even get a little deeper emotionally, but that's for later.  I take commisions, but I can't exactly mail things just yet and nor do I have time to really be making stuff for others at the moment so I suppose I can post when I can take commisions or not later on.

Well that's all for now, but I shall post some more on Friday.  :)